Hello hello guys! As you may know, I am feeling very insecure currently, but there are some days when I am like HEY I NEED A BLOG POST and guess what, today's the day. So I am just updating on life, how it has been, what I have been thinking and doing, what I have been writing... Hope you like it, and I hope you like the direction of blogging that I'm trying right now.
Life has been amazing lately - it's summer (actually, it's supposed to be summer cause, to be honest, the weather is not that great here but at least we are having holidays . I have been doing so much cool stuff these holidays. I went on a festival with my boyfriend. It was about urban art and made me want to write stories again, everything felt very artsy. The bands were totally great, and the artists were friendly and super cool. It was an awesome experience, and I really want to do that again.
Well, another thing: I was in Poland a week, I guess I mentioned it here before, with my friends. Here are just a few pictures. We all had so much fun, I took about 2000 pictures.
On the other side, I have been feeling weirdly confused lately. Here is some stuff which I wrote into my journal the past few days:
I feel like a plastic bag cause whatever I see fills me and makes me want to be like that.
You could make me a completely different person day by day. It scares me and I don't know what I want to fill into that plastic bag, I don't even know who I want to be, neither who I am. There's so much in that plastic bag that I sometimes throw up all these different things and crumble into one white, ugly, confused ball.
That plastic bag is drifting through the cold, fall-ish air desperately longing to somewhere finally, get to lay down on the floor and staying there, desperately longing for a place where it belongs to, but everytime it seems like it will stay this way, everything changes all of the sudden and the wind makes me leave, and search for peace in all directions.
Kinda like hormones and angstiness everywhere.
Whatever, I hope you are fine, thank you for reading this.