I'm sure there's planets wrapped up with you, I've seen them kissing out in the hallway. Once in a while, the zebras run to the spaceman and his gun, in the spider's web!

Finally finding a few hours for blogging makes me really happy after Christmas. I completely forgot what it's like to lay in my bed and do something that's actually fun. But now, having holidays, life's quite great. Since it's not snowing or really cold outside, it doesn't feel like winter at all, but I can at least pretend it's summer by hearing all the songs that I listened to when I had summer break. I'm sick of that winter-not-really-winter and long for the summer sun. But as long as I can stay inside and only leave the house when it's dark already, everything's nice! I just need some records. I also fangirl about Dr. Frank-n-Furter a lot. And about Tavi - I watched the video of her speaking in Melbourne and I felt like she saved my life again. We should make a Salvation mountain for Tavi and Rookie, y'guys. Only, like, planet-size with treehouses where we could all live happily ever after.
Okay now some ~real fashion talk~. I am wearing a few new things. The gigantic and wooly and monster-y sweater was a gift by my mother. The buttons are either gifted or handmade, and the shirt is thrifted. The purple velvet dress underneath is from my childhood. And the fishnet socks which I totally overwear are from Spain. But that's not as important as the shoes! Aren't they super amazing? My boyfriend gave them to me for Christmas and I kinda freaked out a bit about how perfect they are. They remind me of astronauts and David Bowie, so I really feel like Major Tom now (which is clearly awesome). I think they also look kinda like rocket boots, so it feels like this:

Here's a closer look:

They're holographic Doc Martens, basically! I have like a thousand little rainbows on my shoes isn'tthatcute?! I'm gonna wear these really often  always. 

I hope you are all fine! I missed blogging.

Lots of love!

Mary

Yeah, and if I'm lost, well I don't care 'cause I walk on endless stairs. You say it's me, I think it's you, who can blame us for thinkin' the way we do 'cause we don't care what we are. Take me please, take me to mars!

I'm so sorry for not posting for a whole month! Gosh, school's just keeping me so busy, I literally don't have time for anything (including any tries to get a social life, eating or sleep). I wish I could say I'm kidding, but it's exactly like that. I'm supposed to write like a gazillion tests in like, five weeks or something. It completely drives me crazy. And if that wouldn't be enough, I'm also sick. Right now, I'm procastinating - I should study for a test I'm going to write tomorrow, but hey, I mean, I also try to have a internet life! I'm so sad that I barely have time for this blog anymore, I have so many ideas for posts and outfits and I just don't have any time. I hope it'll get better in winter holidays!

Enough of that. These are the pictures I took of my little sister ages ago. I did the make-up and the styling and everything (wow, that sounds so professional, actually, we were just bored and I felt like taking pictures). She has incredibly huge eyes anyways, so that eyelid thing looked so creepy! I totally freaked out when I was done with the make-up and was looking at her. But I think it looks really awesome in a creepy-spooky way. Happy a-month-after-halloween, you guys.

Okay I'm actually so happy now that I finally wrote a post again.

Lots of love,

Mary

PS: I've got a surprise for you in the next post. xx

Somewhere down where streets are ending, down the road of no return, we will meet where hearts are mending in a room where voices burn.

 Holidays are awesome. I am so happy I finally found time to take some pictures again! I was in a ~creative rush~ today so I got out my hot glue gun and made that jacket more interesting. Although I love the bad grrl vibes of a black leather jacket, I never wore mine - it was just too black and shiny for me. But I cut some letters out of an old pair of jeans and glued them on the back of the jacket. Ain't I artsy. Anyways! I am also wearing thrifted mom jeans which are cozy and warm and nice. The shirt is DIYed, the sunglasses are thrifted and the bracelets have been collected from everywhere during the summer. The socks are from Spain and the shoes from Vancouver, Canada. That's kinda crazy. I am basically wearing stuff from all over the world. Well that's cool!


I guess I just felt really inspired today. Lovely Sophie sent me her amazing zine, and I read all the zines I own again. I kinda almost forgot how much fun Zines are. Reading the Zines I made about a year ago is also really funny and weird, it's strange to realize how much you have changed since making that Zine. I have been feeling pretty disoriented lately. I don't read ROOKIE as much as I used to, and I feel like I kinda lost the thing I have identified with. As much as I am struggling to just do what I want without putting myself into one special subculture, it does not really seem to work. The more I am trying to be myself, the more I try to fit into one subculture. Isn't that weird? Definitely. But well, that's what teenagehood's about, I guess. That's gonna be my excuse forever, like, I'm gonna be searching until I look like an old pumpkin.


Pumpkin! Halloween's coming. Although I have never been a fan of that Halloween stuff, I love the creepy yet cozy atmosphere in fall. I made up a little photo set today and made my sister modelling for these pictures. I will upload them on Thursday!

Love,

Mary

See, these eyes so green, I can stare for a thousand years, colder than the moon, it's been so long and I've been putting out fire with gasoline.

Hey gals!

Another time you had to wait quite a long time. School keeps me busy! It's kinda hard and exhausting, but until now, it's fun sometimes. But I'm really tired all the time. Besides school, I've been having a wonderful time! My boyfriend and I saw a musical last weekend, and it was just SO GREAT. I've been getting more and more into musicals lately. 

Another thing that fascinates me is the Hippie culture. Do you still remember me saying I have been feeling hippie vibes back in early summer this year? As I often had such periods of loving a special subculture, I thought that fascination would be gone by the end of this summer, but actually, it got more ~intense~. I have been reading a lot about Hippies, about nature in general. As a child, I was almost always outside, but getting older that somehow changed. Lately I have been getting back to that in a certain way. As you may know, I have been a vegetarian since seven years and it means really much to me - there are just so many reasons. I'm reading a book currently called "Peace food", which is about meat and dairy products making you sick and it's so interesting and I'll go to be vegan soon. To me, it's just a logical consequence of thinking. Life begins with food, shouldn't we think more about it? What we eat is basically what we constist of! There are just so many people not thinking about that.

Okay enough of that rambling.

I am wearing...

super super super cool shoes my sister gave me for that outfit! They are see-through and really utterly     awesome. And socks from Primark which I bought that summer, I love those, I think they look really funny. I'm also wearing my vein tights which you certainly know already. The skirt is also from Primark, and although I hate the conditions how they produce their clothes, I wear it a lot. I also re-discovered my Rookie tee and love wearing it lately. The shirt (you can only see the collar) is thrifted, and the buttons are homemade. I think it all matches really well, think I'm going to wear that more often. 

Hope you like it!

There'll be a exiting post for me up soon.

Love and Peace!!

Mary

PS: If there are any language mistakes in here, please don't be mad at me. It's late and I'm tired.

Paint splashes across your cheeks, never have a doubt that life isn’t sweet. Open arms and and open mind cause you to fly, just like the knowing sun we were so high, we were so high, so high...

Hello fellow human beings. Nice to talk to you again. It's been quite long. School already seems like it's right in the middle of the year, although it's only been three weeks. I have to study a lot (I never did so before, so I always feel really ~bright~ when I go to school and have actually did something for school at home, haha. But, actually, school's pretty okay at the moment! Quite exhausting, but nice. In the german school system, a lot changes when you go to 11th grade, so quite a few things are new and exiting. I can't believe I'll be done with school in two years. I always think I am supposed to be all grown-up and to feel like an adult but I totally don't. I mean, I'll be happy when school's over, but man I was eleven yesterday and I thought sixth grade would last forever.

Anyways! I have been on a fleamarket today, sold and bought some stuff. I'll post my new items another time. I had a super cool day, although I had to get up at 5:30 am. Can you believe that?
Okay so here's an outfit I wore recently. It's really witchy, I guess! I am wearing my Pink Floyd dress, tied up, over a violet velvet dress from my childhood. It seems ridiculously small but fits me, which is kinda scary. The badges I am wearing are DIYed and you can buy similar ones here. The platform shoes are from asos, I bought them about a year ago, I guess? They are actually to small, but hey, they look good (I still don't wear them as much as I used to - I love my Doc Martens and my Converse way too much to ever wear any other shoes). The sequined collar was a gift from Britney! I love it, it's so ~sparkly~ (imagine me doing some spirit fingers here). There's a goggly eye on my forehead, black lipstick on my lips and a lot of witchiness in my head sometimes. The bracelets are reminders and souvenirs of the beautiful summer this year, everyone resembles another cool thing I did. My sister took the pictures, and I don't have a clue what she did that the last picture is that blurred and foggy, but it looks kinda cool, I think.
Speaking of taking pictures! I took some pictures with a really old disposable camera throughout the summer, and I'm very exited how they'll turn out. I did know exactly nothing about how that works, you know, so I just took pictures and I'm afrain they're all blurred or to bright or whatever, but as I can't remember of what I took pictures, I'm still extremly exited and looking forward to seeing them.
Well, hope you enjoy these pictures and like my outfit!

Lots of love,

Mary

Mirrors on the ceiling, the pink champagne on ice and she said "We are all just prisoners here, of our own device".

Today was the first day of school and it was kinda exiting and cool but it still sucks almost as much as it did last year. But, hey, I have only two years of school left now! That sounds... long. I hope I'll survive without crying attacks and fights (as if, haha...). 

Well, I have this awesome new velvet tee and I love it but I HAD NO CLUE HOW TO WEAR IT so I spent the last two hours on tumblr searching for some inspiration but I failed and then I decided to clean up my room and found these trousers and they match perfectly (or maybe I was just depressed and made myself believe they match with the top). I have searched for similar trousers so I was pretty surprised and happy when I found these in my room - I completely forgot about them, I think I never wore them at all. Although that kind of trousers makes your butt appear huge, I still like them - they are kinda 90ies and comfy and I think they are cool. The shoes (which you are probably pretty tired of) are DIYed and all the pins in my hair are gifted or from my childhood and I think they light up the outfit a bit... dunno. And, speaking of hair, you may have noticed it's shorter than in the last post - I went to the hairdresser, and I really miss my hair, although I like how healthy it looks now. And I played around with the editing program, that's why the color is that weird. 

I bought a new record, by the way! It's "Hotel California" by The Eagles and the quality is totally excellent, I basically listen to it all day long. (and all night long). 

Yeah, I hope you are alright.

Love!

Mary 

I am tired, I am weary, I could sleep for a thousand years, a thousand dreams that would awake me, different colors made of tears. Shiny, shiny, shiny boots of leather, whiplash girlchild in the dark.

Have you ever realized that the beginning of a blog post is always shitty? Starting a post is way more difficult than you may think! 

I felt totally motivated to blog today, so here's an outfit post. I am wearing...

a thrifted jumper - people say I look like a chicken in it. I'd love to hear more opinions - ice bear or chicken?

a thrifted blouse.

a handmade button - I sell these on Etsy, check 'em out!

a skirt from Primark - I bought this one about two weeks ago, it's cozy and reminds me of school uniforms, I really like it.

DIYed saddle shoes - I painted them last summer, I think?

seven bracelets which all tell a different story - I wear them everyday. 

I would like to write something about feelings here, but, honestly, I don't know how I feel - weirdly good, maybe. So, anyways, just some stuff I have discovered on my endless journeys through the internet. 

Sinead's song "Famou$" is amazing, and I am happy to know (well, via internet) a person who can make music that great.

Lou Reed is an amazing singer, especially his song "Perfect day". There's a magic in that sound.

If you haven't read it already, you need to read Sophie's world. It is amazing and beautiful.

Lots of love and sparkles,

Mary 

Just a perfect day, you made me forget myself, I thought I was someone else, someone good.

 

Hello hello guys! As you may know, I am feeling very insecure currently, but there are some days when I am like HEY I NEED A BLOG POST and guess what, today's the day. So I am just updating on life, how it has been, what I have been thinking and doing, what I have been writing... Hope you like it, and I hope you like the direction of blogging that I'm trying right now.

Life has been amazing lately - it's summer (actually, it's supposed to be summer cause, to be honest, the weather is not that great here but at least we are having holidays . I have been doing so much cool stuff these holidays. I went on a festival with my boyfriend. It was about urban art and made me want to write stories again, everything felt very artsy. The bands were totally great, and the artists were friendly and super cool. It was an awesome experience, and I really want to do that again. 

Well, another thing: I was in Poland a week, I guess I mentioned it here before, with my friends. Here are just a few pictures. We all had so much fun, I took about 2000 pictures.

 Bracelets from Danzig and a Henna tattoo which is gone already but it was beautiful.

 Me, at the sea, feeling free and happy.

 We slept in a VW-museum and there were so many cute cars! I totally freaked out about them.

 A sixties-themed collage which broke my heart because of nostalgia.

That was the last evening, we went to a great concert of a band which is famous in Poland.

On the other side, I have been feeling weirdly confused lately. Here is some stuff which I wrote into my journal the past few days:

I feel like a plastic bag cause whatever I see fills me and makes me want to be like that. 

You could make me a completely different person day by day. It scares me and I don't know what I want to fill into that plastic bag, I don't even know who I want to be, neither who I am. There's so much in that plastic bag that I sometimes throw up all these different things and crumble into one white, ugly, confused ball.

That plastic bag is drifting through the cold, fall-ish air desperately longing to somewhere finally, get to lay down on the floor and staying there, desperately longing for a place where it belongs to, but everytime it seems like it will stay this way, everything changes all of the sudden and the wind makes me leave, and search for peace in all directions.

Kinda like hormones and angstiness everywhere.

Whatever, I hope you are fine, thank you for reading this.

Love!

Mary

Let's swim out tonight, love, it's our turn to try, parked beside the ocean on our moonlight drive - let's swim to the moon, let's climb through the tide. Surrender to the waiting worlds that lap against our side.

 Hello humans. 

As promised, here's an outfit post. I have been wearing this outfit quite often - I love how it's both witch-y and hippie-esque. That top is from a supercute thrift store - it's so crammed full of small things , weird toys, old magazines, and it's amazingly cheap. Also, some of the clothes are to die for - like that top, in my opinion. It's from the 70ies, and it's perfect for cool summer evenings. My shorts are DIYed, and basically my all-time-favorite, I have been wearing those way to often. Well, I love the dreamcatcher necklace I am wearing so much. It's from a really spiritual/hippie store near my hometown, and it's all, like, good vibrations and stuff. I wear it almost everyday. The other necklace is from my mother. 

Once I started blogging again, I have to leave you without a post for a week, I'm sorry! I will go to Poland with some friends of mine, I am sure it will be totally awesome. I'll take two cameras with me, my usual Reflex Camera and a analog one. I have been photographing with that one for a while, and I am so exited how the pictures will turn out to be! It's kinda exiting. 

Anyways, I hope you guys are all fine!

Love,

Mary

When you smile all of the subatomic pieces come together and unfold themselves in a second, every single molecule is right...

Hello lovely people!

That kinda feels like writing a ~first post~ again. As I wrote in my last post, blogging didn't feel good lately. But I don't want to totally quit it, so I thought I'd change something. Well, Welcome on that half-new blog!

These are some pictures of how summer has been so far. 

My boyfriend and I went to a lake near my hometown. We bought a disposable camera and had so much fun taking pictures! There's this rope where you can basically swing into the lake like Tarzan. 

 We also went to a "festival". There are  bands playing everywhere in the city, and you can just walk around, listen and party. It was incredibly awesome! One of the bands was very great, they covered some Reggae songs, Kiss, and a lot of 80ies stuff (which  I really love).

 Last week we went on a school trip. I have been in that village with our school choire five times, and this time was my last. I felt kinda nostalgic and melancholic, but also great. You may tell from the photos - I have been in a hippie mood lately. It feels great. I just try to be, like, free? I don't know. I try to just be myself. It's weird as I feel very confident about what others think of me, I don't care, but sometimes I'm very insecure about myself, it's hard to explain. But I think that's what teenagehood is all about - being confused and figuring out who you are.

There'll be some outfit posts soon.

Lots of love!

Mary