I don't know why I'd rather be dead than cool, I don't know why every line ends in rhyme, I don't know why less is more, love is blind, I don't know why - God is gay!

Attention: before you start reading, click this link and listen to the song while reading.

Hey lovelies!
Life's crazy. Ever since I have been featured on Buzzfeed.com in this "teen style icon" post, I can't even tell you what's happening. The local newspaper wrote an article about me and my blog (page one, guys!), featured me on their website and boom, that was my official "outing". Most of my friends knew about this blog, bu I've always enjoyed how anonymous the internet is - now everybody, like, everybody knows about my blog. And actually, people are being really lovely! I've got tons of positive feedback and supercute compliments and congratulations. But it's not over yet - I'm doing a interview on the radio this week, and a entire photo set plus interview with another magazine! I almost feel famous, it's so weird (in a freaking awesome way!).
Besides that, school kinda sucks. Because of the overwhelming amount of deadlines and pressure I am basically stressed all the time. To get rid of the constant worries (such as: I messed up this important test. I am going to mess up the next important test tomorrow. I won't get a job. I'm not even able to live on my own.) I'm trying hard to get more of a I'm-young-I-don't-care-attitude. So what could be a better soundtrack to my life than Kurt Cobain's wonderful voice?
My family gave me a Nirvana album for Christmas last year, which I lost and found again in my room like two weeks ago. I've been listening to it constantly since then. Most people say listening too much Grunge music makes you unhappy or depressed, angry or aggressive - in my case, it's just the other way round. Nirvana makes me feel strong, vigorous and invincible, even happy, to be frank. I'm not able to put it into words as great as Kurt himself: "Punk is musical freedom. It's saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster's terms, 'nirvana' means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that's pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock." . I mean, freedom is the thing you should search for in music, shouldn't you?
But the pure music of Nirvana is not the only reason for my current Kurt-Cob-session: in fact, I bought The diaries of Kurt Cobain, which is a book with the collection of diary pages and the German translation (for times when I can't read his handwriting,haha). I think it's amazing to read the diary of another person, especially of a person that interesting as Kurt Cobain! It's like a glimpse inside his head. His writing is extraordinary shocking and wonderful, his letters tell so much about him and the notes for song lyrics are incredible! I'm obsessed, which you can probably tell from the fact that I am hugging a book.

pinterest, tumblr.

YAY for this book and NIRVANA. Isn't he the best? His smile is as lovely as a child's and his voice probably as husky as ... I can't find a comparison, he's too great.

I'm proud of you if you read all that, haha. Well, for those who are here for Fashion,
--> Start reading here.
Needless to say, my outfit is grunge-inspired. Of course I could not resist the urge to wear a flower crown I made this summer. I also wear two shirts - layering extreme. I liked the idea of clashing two different tartan patterns, so I chose a thrifted jacket-shirt-thing in dark green and a shirt a good friend of mine gave me (not forever, sadly. it's so cozy and comfortable and soft and grunge.). And as the ultimate key style of the Grunge era included a lot of flannel tartan shirts, I think they fit the theme quite well! I am wearing one of my favorite T-shirts underneath the layers. It's beautifully printed with the different phases of the moon - I bought it on asos in the men's department for around 10 euros, I think, so it was quite a good deal.
The pants I'm wearing are from Zara (I'm so short, Zara's pants are the only ones fitting me, seriously.) and are high-waisted. I am pretty obsessed with high-waisted jeans, actually! The boots were a gift from my lovely boyfriend last Christmas and are my ultimate go-for on bad days as the holographic texture projects tiny rainbows on your feet and what on earth could make one happier than this?
I also wear my beloved black lipstick and the bracelets I could never put off.

Wow, that was a lot of raving in one post. But how couldn't I?
Anyways, I love connecting music with fashion, so I hope you like this post.

You're wonderful.
Lots of love,

Mary

And if you go chasing rabbits and you know you're going to fall, tell'em a smoking caterpillar has given you the call to call Alice when she was just small.

Hello lovely people!
I've got literally so many posts scheduled, but I can't find the time. But, well, today's one of my rare blogging days. I was inspired by psychedelic, autumnal stuff. I can now proudly call myself an expert of the Hippie culture, especially of Woodstock - I had to write a fifteen pages paper for school about it. It was actually quite interesting and fun to do the research (now that's a surprise!). I listened to a lot of Woodstock songs and can't get rid of the catchy tunes in my head, but I don't mind at all.

(all from tumblr)
I had to face autumn recently. It's still sunny here sometimes, but it's awfully cold. Therefore, I tried to dress in more ~autumnal~ colors. I kinda failed dressing properly for this season, though - I can't resist wearing dresses! I love how cozy they are. I admit I normally wear tights. But for these pictures, a pair of black tights seemed to harsh combined with the bright colors I am wearing. Well, I have to wait a few months to finally wear this outfit outside for longer that a ten minute photo shooting.
I am wearing my favorite dress of all times - it was a gift from my dad almost a year ago. I love it's colors and the lovely print, in addition, the fabric is super soft and cozy. The crochet jacket is from a store around here, they sell so much cute stuff but I can almost never afford their garments. The shoes are from Tamaris and have been my loyal companions this summer as they are incredibly comfortable!
The necklace was sent to me by the lovely people from Punky Pins (thank you again!). They sent me a package with a lot of cute jewelery and I was so happy about this necklace! I love daisies :) I also own matching daisy earrings now. You should definitely check out their store! They're cute and independent and everything is handmade.

I'm - again - sorry for almost no posts on this blog, but as said above, I have many posts scheduled and I WILL eventually post them all. But just in case, if you really miss me (ahem) you can follow me on Etsy. I'm pretty active there and am going to sell a few other zines soon in my shop. Here's the link. I also made a little wishlist (it's christmas soon, folks, and I'm sure you want to send me stuff - I'm broke... as always.).

1. Fox shirt
2. Royal Tenenbaums Journal (I LOVE this movie. Wes Anderson forever!)
3. Backpack
4. Moon earrings (sold, sadly.)
5. Growing heart necklace - isn't this AMAZING?? YES IT IS.
6. Even artichokes have hearts pencils (sold, too - but the shop has some other lovely stuff)

I'm procastinating the entire time and this post took me about three hours. I should really do some school stuff now.
Thank you for reading!
Lots of love,
Mary

PS: I HAVE BEEN FEATURED ON BUZZFEED (they used my photos without permission, though. that's not nice) IN ONE POST WITH THE DAUGHTER OF OBAMA? I guess I'm famous :D
See the post here.

You say it's me, I say it's you - who can blame us for thinking the way we do 'cause we don't care what we are.

Hello people.
I'm kinda rediscovering my love for Harry Potter. I can't wait to tell you why.
I SAW DANIEL RADCLIFFE! Like, you know, DANIEL RADCLIFFE! For real!
Here's the poor quality evidence:

The story behind the picture is better than the picture itself, though.
From the start: I was in London with my boyfriend (hello!) this summer! It was amazing. London is such a beautiful city, it's so vivid and artsy and awesome. We stayed there for six days, which was too short to see everything and long enough to get a cold in the rain (English weather, I guess!). After we had seen most of the typical touristic sights, we went to the m&m's world. I love m&m's so it was kinda the perfect place to be. When we went outside again, we noticed a crowd in front of a cinema - the rest is obvious. Daniel Radcliffe's so short, though! I could barely see him - but I did, luckily.
We also went to the Harry Potter store at Platform 9 3/4, which was AMAZING. There were all the magic wands and the Hogwarts student uniforms and tickets for the Hogwarts Express and I can't stop raving about this store, basically!
This is actually where I bought the T-shirt I am wearing. It was hella expensive, but definitely worth it. I'm in love with it, and people get quite shocked being like "why slytherin?! are you the evil one?".
Besides this official Quidditch shirt I am wearing tights from H&M and a thrifted white shirt (the white collar). The shoes are so old, they're from some flea market and have glittery laces (I had to buy them!). The skirt is actually a dress I bought about two years ago at Modcloth, but I somehow never got to show it here. I like to wear it, though. And for the badass witchy Slytherin vibe I had to put on some black lipstick, of course.
I have also been practicing spells to make this post seem authentic:

Harry Potter is awesome and not childish at all (I am still waiting for my acceptance letter to Hogwarts and therefore escaping all responsibilities in my muggle school). 

I'm blocking school out at the moment - which is quite bad for my grades, but hey, at least I have a Slytherin T-shirt!

Well, to all those "Why Slytherin?!" people: The house teacher of Slytherin is Severus Snape. And he is, undoubtedly, the best character in the Harry Potter movies/books. Therefore I am a Slytherin.
Oh, and have you seen Emma Watson's speech about feminism? I loved it, it was so true. She's a queen.
Watch it here, if you haven't already. Anyways, I suppose I'm finished raving now (I could go on forever, but I'm procastinating right now...)!
I hope you enjoyed this post!
Love,
Mary

They've all got roles and plots and gears, they have for years. Train is running around in my brains, rain is flowing around in my veins, tears are running down my face.

Four weeks no post! Is that a new low point?

Whatever. I'm back. Already busy with school but planning a lot of posts. Today was the first day of school, which was a strange feeling. It was wonderful to see my friends again, but on the other side, I don't have holidays anymore. Furthermore, this school year is going to be extremely stressful. I will graduate in June, which I haven't totally realized yet. It is scary to be done with school soon - dealing with life, you know, is quite hard. And as much as I'm looking forward to graduate, I'm already scared of all the exams and tests coming up. In the German school system, every grade you get in grade 11 and 12 will influence your final grade of your high school diploma. I feel quite weird, therefore - it's a mix of fear and joy. 

In addition to school, I am a member of three theater clubs, want to do some blogging and art and have to apply to literally tons of stuff. So I'm going to live on caffeine, but that's fine!

Enough self-pity now. 

This is a photo set my sister and I did today. We went to my primary school, which is closed now making me feel a bit nostalgic, and to the playground next to it. It just occured to me that I'm not even allowed to go to playgrounds anymore, it's only allowed to play there until you're 14... that's not fair. I love swings. 

Concerning my outfit, I am going for some Enid-Coleslaw vibes, as I really relate to the whole movie Ghost World strongly. I get that suburban sadness thing. But somehow, it has a certain aesthetic. Furthermore, Enid is the best. Look at her, she's amazing! The entire movie is, actually.

I am wearing a giant flower crown I made a few weeks ago. It's HUGE, I tell you. HUGE. It's pretty confusing sometimes, though: most people stare at your head instead of looking you in your eyes when you're talking with them. I thought of Enid's white crown, and, to be honest, a flower crown is obligatory! The skirt (I have been longing for a skirt like this for ages, I love to color!) was sent to me by a friend. The vein tights went perfectly with the outfit - unfortunately, they're ripped and I can't wear them anymore besides for taking pictures.

I bought the platform chucks earlier this year, and I love them, although the platform is way too low. The socks were a gift from my grandma. 

The best part, though, is my t-shirt. It was sent to me by the lovely people from Hicustom.com for free. It was super easy, you just upload an image and they print it on whatever shirt you like (in great quality!). So I chose a scene from Ghost World.

Well, I hope you enjoyed the pictures.
I will be back soon!

Lots of love,
Mary

He has missed her in the forest while he showed her all the flowers and the branches sang the chorus as he climbed the scaley towers of a forest tree while she was somewhere being free...

Hey lovely people! It's been a long time again, I'm just too busy at the moment. But I've got to say, the past weeks have been pretty awesome (except of school, it sucks). I'm in the drama group of my school, and last week we spent four days at a professional theater to see other plays from other schools. There were so many awesome people and even better plays! It was a lot of fun. And as we were away, we skipped school for three days which was one of the best parts. The school year is almost over, so all exams are written and we basically all go to school for like, eight hours a day and no one's even a bit motivated or paying attention at all, actually, everyone's sleeping all the time. I can't wait for summer holidays! I'll go to Spain with my family, probably camping with my friends, and I'll visit London for six days with my boyfriend. It's going to be a great summer, and, hell, it has to be! It's gonna be my last summer vacation in my life. I will graduate next year and although I can't wait to be finished with school, I'm hella scared of the final tests and of the real life after school. But there's still one summer left, so I really have to make the best out of it. I've also been quite productive so far, as you can see! We were supposed to keep a sketchbook in art class, and now that it's graded (A!), I thought I should share some of my drawings/collages/paintings/whatever with you. I'm not really talented at drawing, but I had a lot of fun filling this sketchbook. At first, it was like a duty, something I had to do for school, but as time passed, I got to draw something almost every day. It felt awesome to be, you know, ~creative~ in some way. I've been loosing my creativity in the past few years which makes me so sad, and that sketchbook really helped me to bring it back - at least a part of it. I hope you like it.

The word "Fernwehfeinstaubfantasien" is a made-up german word. The parts of it mean: Wanderlust - fine dust - fantasies and I loved it. Theresa Hahl made it up and used it in this poem of hers.

This is Pippi Langstrumpf, or at least, she's supposed to look a bit like her.


(insert elegant way to change topics here). The lovely people from HiCustom offered me to get something from their shop for free and I was so happy about that! At HiCustom , you can, like, design your own tshirts and stuff and they print it and send it to you. It's pretty awesome! (and it's super cheap, too.). Well, that's the t-shirt I designed:

It's just a white t shirt with a painting by Salvador Dalì on it. I'm really into surrealism lately, and Dalì is, like AMAZING! So I decided to honor him by wearing a painting by him (the ship) on a t shirt. Yay!

Random cat photo. It's just, you know, obligatory.

Lots of love,

Mary!

As I walk down the highway all I do is sing this song and a train that's passin' my way helps the rhythm move along. There is no doubt about the words are clear, the voice is strong, is oh so strong!

A tribute to Robert Plant

Warning: this article could be really chaotic because of extreme fangirling.

Stop whatever you are doing right now. Click on this link. And then, praise the overlord of Rock'n Roll. Maybe it's just me, but ISN'T HE BEAUTIFUL?! (probably it is just me, I showed the video to my sister and she was like "man, he's ugly! what the heck is he doing?!". She's 12 and when it comes to music, I sometimes believe she's not really related to me). To me, anyways, Robert Plant is a god. The god of Rock'n Roll. As the lead singer of Led Zeppelin, he made music history with legendary songs like "Stairway to heaven". Stairway to heaven, lemme tell ya, is the best song ever. Its lyrics are hauntingly beautiful, the guitar solo of Jimmy Page is otherworldly, and Robert Plant's voice is an eargasm, seriously. It's written brilliantly and just captivating. I hate choosing a favorite song, but if I have to, this is it. It's too amazing for this world.

I own unfortunately only two singles of them, and I rarely play them on my record player - they are real treasures to me and I am so afraid they will eventually wear down and I have to throw them away. But when I play them, I would turn the volume up and up and up and it's like wooooaaaah. I'm so sorry, I don't have words for Robert Plant's voice. He's just the best.

Well, I felt the urge to listen to the record today, and I decided to dedicate an entire post to the god of Rock'n Roll. I did a photo set inspired by Robert Plant, and here it is. The clothes are all thrifted.

Enjoy!

Love,

Mary